The not innocent

Scrolling down from my blog, I had to take back a lot of wished. 

The fifth gone, like a thunder, like a lightning, like a scat, or I will label it as a ThunderStorm.

I awake with clear-headed. 

Things will go when its not yours. 

I got promoted. 

Oh, that's great. 

Work pressure increase, money increase, expenses increase, 

But I'm getting old, lesser time, and less healthy

HOW?

HOW?

沉默=金

续上次停笔的时候 已经离去年2个月了

再次回到这里 我的自言自语空间

却无话可说

沉默是金

一个人旅行 《前传》

• 就这趟，掏心掏肺的一段恋情 一段充满恐惧与悲哀的恋情 蜕变成另一段非凡的空间

  当我还在为过去颓废时 电话响起了 “喂，有想过去旅行吗？当作散散心” 也好，反正没试过自己一个人旅行 就这样决定了。

  有人说“只有一个人在旅行时，才听得见自己的声音。它会告诉你，这世界比想象中的宽阔。你的人生不会没有出口，你会发现自己有一双翅膀，不必经过任何人同意就能飞”

  在旅途中应该会和社会脱离关系，面对真实的自己。还有可能认识生活范围内不可能认识的人，偶遇缘分。

  开始了一连串的准备 订机票 更新护照、办签证 整理机票、定行程 换外汇 打包行李

  都是文件上的东西，完全没准备攻略！

  不准备，是因为那不拘束的任性 想走到哪里就哪里的那一种 管他是骗子还是傻子 老子最后活着回来就好

  
  

  
  

  ……以继续…… 一个人的旅行 《第一章》

Afraid

I gave you 2nd chance, it's my pleasure
I don't get 2nd chance from you, it's my muff

Many opinions, many suggestion, lots of caring, concern and chike
Who to follow, who to choose, who to thanks, who to owe, and who to love

Fourth time, times flies~
so, when will be the fifth time?

from a Hi,
100 text a day, become infinity text a day.
and until today, ended with OK gua.

I don't feel it strong until I recall the old one. What are so special with you?
Same **** Just a different day. (This quote is so sincere)

I'm too serious, I'm too serious to treat each romance, is that a wrong way?


I don't want to make you get into deeper of the scariness. I have to choose leave, leave for good.

I remember you told me that, Cried is because you are love.
and I replied, its pain when you make the person to return love for you.
Its true, so true.

I hope life treats you kind,
and I hope you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness

I will be taking all the bittersweet memories with me,
so goodbye.

Hopefully the coming Taiwan trip could digest everything, store it into the deepest in my heart, the deepest, the deepest.

hopefully tears will not fall down easily anymore, I had enough of this shit for a week plus.
I don't realised it severity until my BFF told me about it.

Well, its because I use different way to walk through for this time.

I did't touch beer.
I did't go ad flirt others.

That's why I feel more suffer to pass the time?

I'm afraid, I can't get any new sense with the rest, is this just a transition period?
I don't want to be forever alone T_T

When time goes by, everything will be fine I hope.
Oh, the sour feeling in my heart is attacking me! again. Its so sour.


The best way to stop thinking is SLEEP!


good night peeps!

Transformation

夜深了，心最累。一直想为自己的心写点什么，却不知道从何下笔，也许只有夜静能够体会。爱了就爱了，散了就散了，自己有时候真的觉得很失落，沮丧。很多事情自己无法放开，也舍不得放下。也许有时候自己太认真，直到爱渐渐地消失，才知道堕落的感觉，当心已经放弃时爱也就完全不见了。试着让自己沉淀，我不该还在旧事里伤悲，应该从自己的哀怨里面走出来。我的脚步不该那么沉重，青春就是一场梦，诺言只是来去疾风。岁月最是诚实的永恒，可是等待是否最无情？是真爱是真意，总要经历风和雨，有相聚就会有离别，敢爱就不能怕寂寞。时间会让自己变得潇洒，命中注定我只是你生命里的一个过客。


[面对它，接受它，处理它，放下它]

放下，并不是说我们不爱。当我们的感情不能得于圆满时，当我们不能用有时，那就选择放下吧。因为错过了就是错过，有些事有些人错过了就是永远。放下了，不代表我们不爱，只是把这种爱收藏在心中，入骨入髓，它已是你生命的一部分，没有人能把它分离。

累了，就放下。不管是那种累。只有放下了，我们才会找回自己；只有放下，我们才更懂得爱，不要让爱成为一种负累；放下吧，我们才会快乐，也带给他人快乐；放下吧，做一个全新的自己，放下吧，爱才会回来！


要是真实感觉能够与文字媲美，那到底是什么在作怪？

过渡期

虽然已是家庭关系了，但发现已经没有找你的理由了

你和他在约会，我这个做弟弟的，识做就不能打扰当电灯泡

这关系，就只不过精神上和肉体上让大家好过一点

说不上是分离，更称不上是结合。


我不伤心， 高兴地，也是那一杀那的感动

说不出是伤心，也说不出是高兴
想了一整天，原来那是--- 失落感

听着情歌， 麻木的感觉；没感觉；没有想哭；也没有伤心


需要的，就是让时间慢慢地冲淡一切
每次都是这样过，这次也不是大问题
一定走出那阴影，不然很难迎接下一个
一整天以愉快的心情偷偷过关，伪善最乐


你和他要加油，真心祝福你们


人之所以活的累，是因為放不下架子，撕不開面子，解不開情結。


這一刻 突然覺得好熟悉
像昨天 今天同時在放映
我這句語氣 原來好像你
不就是我們愛過的證據

差一點 騙了自己騙了你
愛與被愛不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一種運氣
但我無法完全交出自己

努力為你改變
卻變不了 預留的伏線
以為在你身邊 那也算永遠
彷彿還是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遙遠
但閉上我雙眼 我還看得見

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走 卻走失那路口
感謝那是你 牽過我的手
還能感受那溫柔

Memories

Don't know how long
It's been a while since
You told me, your favorite story

It's been on my mind
Driving me crazy
Am I the reason, that you're crying now

I see the tears in your eyes
They tell me you don't believe
That I can't be, your prince charming

Maybe you can't understand
But when you said you love me
My life was change, and I wish you could see

Look at me can't you tell I'd be so
Thrilled to see the message in your eyes
You make it seem I'm so close to my dream
And then suddenly....

I rely on anything you say
I'll take care that no illusions shatter
If you dare to say what you should say
Why do I feel so alive when you're near

I'm sorry for did not hold you tight
Am I asking too much from you?
You're not tired, but I love you until I'm exhausted

Standing at this balance point, I feel the dangerous
Perhaps it can not seen, but try to relay through feeling

Rain, non stop raining
Flower, do not open as usual
Although how careful I irrigation
At last, I alone enjoy the sorrow

I betray myself, to complete your hope

After the show end, I never blame you
Because both of us have the responsibility
There is a new start for everyone, do not let yourself plug in to the sorrow

I still keep the message that you sent me, to accompany me when I feel lonely
Although it is naive

Enjoyment precious than own
We enjoy the air, but can not own the air
Similar to we enjoy the friendship, family and also love

Its not easy to find a partner

Especially when you saw a lot of betrayed

But who kill you? The answer is yourself

Be brave to look the yours in the mirror
You are now sadness, weak, and languish
What you had to do is get yourself into a new life

I look back, sweet memories are standing there =)